The Things We Do for Love

I Just completed my first semester back after my mission and to be honest, it has been bittersweet. I may just continue my higher education forever because as much as I would love to be done. When I do it, I feel best about myself. Especially about the work I was able to accomplish. Most the time though. I feel like i'm not doing enough or I'm not good enough to accomplish the work that is required of me to do. I took my last and final math class as far as I know because my major for special education does not require any further information then math 1050. I always enjoyed math before hand because it was strait forward and to the point about numbers that for some odd reason gave me structure in my life. This semester though, I let my teacher and my surroundings get to me and the tension of being done got to me so all though there were some mishap's and mistakes I learned that hard work is the key. When you get frustrated at your teacher who has a heavy germane accent telling you  "you have to do the work."  all you can think to tell him is "I am doing the work the only way I have been taught, professor." then it gets a little tense on test. I have never done well on test before. That is why I have had to go from the beginning and work a little harder then some other's. Its has made it harder to be the honest true individual that I have always strived  to be, its what I want in my life most. To have so many insecurities in your life and be comfortable with it is a lot harder then it seems. As I went through the class though; I was able to find good people. Who could really help me understand the concepts and the principles. It was when I did the best I ever have on a math test, I got a 90 on it. People still made me feel so insecure about it because more then half the class got a hundred percent. Then to have my teacher call me out in front of all of them saying I was by far the most improved student when my teacher proceeded to say about me "she almost has an A in the class." well that just killed me it was my biggest down fall and it was the class before the final. I was mortified that he would say that to any one except me. And where did it get me?  I totally choked on the final. This post probably seems very negative and poor me right well it kind of is but I am writing this because writing seems to be the only way for me to get things out and this has a point in the grand scheme of my life as well. One of my goal's for life is to become a teacher. I never understood what it took to be a teacher especially a special education teacher as I still don't but am gaining more of an understanding of it as I have worked with these individual's for years now and It is just now clicking to me that It takes a lot to be the type of teacher, mentor, friend, person that I want to become and that takes hard work and patients in our lives because we may say patients is not our virtue but it is a part of our lives wither we want it to be or not. So if i'm not willing to go through my struggles, my insecurities and do the things that will get me there; then I don't deserve to be a teacher to those kids. If I'm willing to bend the rules or not be exactly obedient to the principles I have learned to be true;  I cannot become the teacher, mother, individual that I want to be in my life. I just saw this picture on my facebook from a dear sweet lady whom I love. and I thought it was perfect for this. Have a great summer I will be talking to y'all soon again.

Happiness Make the World go Round

I would just like to start off by saying I love Tender Mercies with all of my heart and the blessings it brings to me through the love of Christ. I just love answered prayers and the joy and love that this gospel brings in my life. I Know that it is the whole entire truth of gods church on this earth and I invite you all to find out for your self if it is true because I know you can. I love opportunities to not have things go according to your own plan because you can see the lords plan is what truly prevails and makes things so much better. I have really been struggling with accepting my role here in Utah right now and trying to figure it out because I have been home for just sort of 7 months now and I would originally be coming home in one more transfer 6 weeks and it has been a real struggle for me to understand why I couldn't still be there in Alabama. Then I realized that the lord know's. he know's why I went he know's why I had the overwhelming feelings that I needed to come home earlier and get help in recovering with my health. He know's the people I need in my life and so I simply just need to put my faith in him and live the principals that I had the honor of teaching for 10 months in Alabama. I tell those I meet daily that it is the best decision i have made to date in my life and I fully mean that. It has changed my life. He is my guide and the only one that I need to rely on and even though its hard at times he help's me to see the blessings I can have from it and I can't thank him enough for being my best friend and my guide and my brother and everything I need in my life. I love this gospel and I love this song that I am going to share and I hope you can all Liston and see how you can use it in your own lives. Thank you all so much for being such great examples to me of this gospel I know I need all the help I can get. Enjoy your wonderful Sabbath as well.

Things that keep me sane right now

So I was reading my good friend's blog the other night and she talking about the type of RM She want's to be now and her struggle to do so but trust me she is an inspiration to us all in all she does. So this is my version of the some of the Tender Mercies in my life at this time. Through my journey to become a better RM and Better Person in General
l. The Happy Bubbly Girls in my classes that make me feel like I really am doing the write thing right now even when most of the other boy's look at me like " Did She really just ask that?"
2. Amazing Pep talks from Good ol George in My Current love BMW
3. Cute moments at work when One of those I work for gets treated like a princess and even gets a kiss on the cheek from an nice English man.
4. Having a free weekend to Study, Clean and have dinner with my favorite people.
5. Looking forward to seeing more of my favorite people in a few weekends.
6. All the Tender Mercies that happen at work and boy are there many.
7. The joy of riding in my car listening to my music and appreciating  the fact that I have these gifts and I have So many way's to be grateful for the things that may or may not be bringing me Stress in my life but I do know that they are all here for my good and I am grateful for the opportunities, The Stresses and, The obstetrical's  that are along the way. 

I'm Moving on Up

This past weekend I was able to go up to Logan to talk to some advisers and get a feel for the land that I will be going to school at next fall. Yup that's right I will be moving up northward to Logan, UT to go to school and get my teaching degree in special education. It was a great weekend and I have a few pictures to show you how I experienced the life up in Logan. So Enjoy because I know I sure did.

We Attempted to clean the sink we pretty much did though.

The Beautiful Logan Temple 

Another beautiful view of the temple

Brock and I at the Hockey Game 

So I decided I am the worst blogger ever lately but its only because my life is so consumed by the crazyness that we call life. You know what they say though, A picture is worth a thousand words so I have a bunch to do the talking enjoy and I'll talk to Y'all soon

Check out my new Ride she's a beauty 

Crazy night with an awesome guy 

Love and hello for y'all 

Ain't my nephew so darn cute

Kind of blurry but still very pretty 

ROLL TIDE Alabama Won baby 

Mi Mudda, Metcalf and Me 

Like mother like daughter Love this girl. 

Tis the Season to be jolly

Hey Y'all hope your having a very blessed season at this time of year. I love this time of year. I wont lie though it has felt weird at this time of year not being on my mission and all but it has been truly great. I love being with family and Friends around this time of year and this past weekend has really brought me into the Christmas spirit. Through seeing one of my best friends Christine coming back so we were able to see the lights at temple square. Then I went and watched a movie I haven't seen with a good friend of mine and finishing out with church and a wonderful puerto rican dinner with Christine, Her family and some friends and a wonderful Christmas performance the institute choir put on at the school it was wonderful to just relax and Think about the savior and what this time of year really mean's I love it. I am so greatful for all the beautiful blessings I have in my life right now and I love This beautiful, Perfect gospel to remember how I can truly pay it foward to the lord and to all around me I love you all and I hope you enjoy this time of year with your family and friends and really focus on whats to come. Enjoy some pictures from Temple Square.

Catching Up

It's been a while sense I blogged so I wanted to Catch you up on happenings in my life as of lately. Its been great to see some family and friends I haven't in a while and go to party's for the Holiday season. I also had a neice born in October and so we had a shower for my sister in law witch was very fun. I just have been enjoying life. I was excited to celebrate Halloween with some good friends and some new ones at a Halloween party Katie had so I will put a few pictures from that up and after Halloween I worked hard to find a job and I succeeded because I started my new job at a day program for special needs its the most perfect job for me right now and I am so excited to actually start working with them more. I have stayed busy with some other medical appointments that have been helping me get back to normal so that has been great and now I am just registering for school this next semester and I am kind of excited to get back into school again and have some new experiences in my life. Its been a crazy time and so much fun as well. Here are some pictures of my recent happenings so I hope you enjoy 

                                               Love and Blessing's 

                                                  Always Anna